hand by hand

as usual my day start off at 6:50 am in the morning by waking up and get ready myself for work...at about 7:15 i start heading to the bus stop to get my bus as my work place is juz 3km away(save money on petrol and parking already) then as i wait for the bus i saw this crazy ppl who didn't prepare themselves the nite before or wake up late rushing to work in their car without caring the pedestrians who cross the road and few of them juz honk those ppl who are crossing(are they trying to be road bullies)...i juz feel those idiot are the world most stupid ppl and didn't even study then road law when they take their car licence and that really stupid of them...juz then i saw this 2 Malay kids who wanted to cross the road but the traffic juz seem to heavy for them to cross themselves and those adult Malay ppl who cross the road as well juz seem don't care about them and juz cross by themselves i wonder what kinda world is this(i thought Malays ppl always help their own racer as they dun care about Chinese or even Indian race) so i juz wait for a little more while as i watch this cruel world and bloody nasty ppl and asshole car driver who juz don't care to lend a hand for the 2 poor Malay kids whom desperate cross road and scare of being late for their classes at the surau near by.as we know the tv or radio even advertise and taught us how to lend a hand for kids to cross road by holding their hand....

poor Malays kids,now waited for 5 minute to cross the road already...all adult who cross the road who see them yet didn't help are really a bastard*yes i juz swear upon them*...then i juz make up my mind about to help them even i am not their kind as i know how god have shower his love,grace and mercy to me by lending his wide protective hand when i needed the most so i must also be a example for his will upon me...so i juz take all my strengh and will to walk up to help them even i waited at the bus-stop for about 8 minute and my bus about to come already and put shame on all adult ppl there waiting for bus stop and adult who crossed the road without caring to lend a hand for those kids...and yes i do help them to cross the road safely and even when i help this poor kids some bastard trying to run over me...but i juz don't care as this kids are my first priority...and less then a 40 second they have cross the busy traffic already*glad that i can be a big help to them when they needed the most*...and i am really proud of myself as this kids say thanks and wave good bye to me...as i walk up to the bus stop again and stood there listening to my music ,all the ppl at the bus stop see my kind and helpful action i have show even i looked like a zombie there and even some ppl juz turn away and looked ashamed of themselves...and i glad how god have pour his love for me to show his love for all mankind here...

my day was bad...

my day was bad...i mean real bad...how???


i mean i dun have a good sleep the nite b4...i do sleep yet my brain didn't slp...you know la(the thought is still roaming around my head) and yes i glad that she call at last at 2:50am...she called and then hang up(mean miss call gua)...then i call her back...when i called her i thought is around 12 plus but actually is 2:50am in the morning cause i went to slp early around 10 plus but yet is not consider sleeping as my brain is still active and can hear all kinda noise mostly those ppl who work over nite because of setting up all the camp near the football field near my housing area for the damn election stuff...we do talk a little cause she still having assignment to finish...guess she miss me*wakakaka* after such a long time i didn't call her because of work but our conversation lasted for 10 min only... :( but i am glad she called...well then i continue laying at my bed cause i am awake already(i am kinda zombie as u can know) till morning...well then the bell ring sharp at 7:00am and some rude ppl out there which joining the election walk use loud speaker and honk their damn car hon all the way at the main road...i really gonna sue them because of disturbing the Sunday morning peace...then i juz head for the restroom to clean myself because i cant continue to have my restless slp and i have to go church as well then i took all my clothes for washing and clean my bedroom because as well...soon after that i get myself ready for church at about 8plus and then blah blah blah blah.....


now i m at church d...thing didn't turn up well, and i am still consider NEW over there cause i juz join this church this after spm and i dun really have alot of friend over there but yet i do greet some ppl that i recognize that all...so i juz have to hangout there alone at my sit..but i am glad i still have a couple of friend from my cell to talk to...but during praise and worship time start i dunno why i dun feel rite and have no mood to worship god which i am eager to worship and praise him in the morning before i came to church when i am on the way there..then this girl turn out(another girl i like) as u know i still have love sick...then i juz bad and old thought come in and this old thought make me worst and i dun feel rite and i juz stood there all the way through the time of praise and worship and looking over at her...then come to the message which really caught my attention which the topic is about teenager nowadays and blah blah blah till church was over and blah blah blah again...


reach home and there is no lunch and i am the only son in the family who go to church and my parent when out for family or shopping spree i guess -.-..but i juz then i old enough to take care of my own so i juz go cook some Maggie mee and eat and then take a short nap...when i am awake i head to ioi mall to practise my initial d game again...then here i am already dropping at a cyber cafe checking my mail and writing this blog...and then nite i guess will be a damn blah blah blah nite...and tomorrow will be working days...sein...so i juz let this bored and bad day ruin me till the new day begin..sign out

=.= i am so noob today..thanks

it have been a hard 3 month after spending and learning for the almost 3 month for the new initial d version 4 at last i learn a new kind of technique from IN *thanks buddy* thanks for all the friend and ppl who willing to teach and now i am ready to go for the big challenge which to make my own fame and record so that the whole Malaysia region know me and acknowledge me being one's of the best among the best...it have been total hard time as i think i have spend about 1k plus currently juz to built 2 car(HONDA S2000 AND TOYOTA TREUNO AE86)which one car need at least RM500 to full tune and now this 2 car really bring out the real me in diving into making my own fame in ver 4 and my current rank at my place(ioi mall) is top 2 in puchong area....i hope both of this car can roar along with me as i building another new car(MAZDA RX-7)...and hopefully i make it into top 20 Malaysia by end of this year...well friend if u wanna see me in action u can always come to midvalley or ioi mall...sometime I'll be at times square also...wish me luck

youth camp 2007 day 1



youth camp 2007 day 2


youth camp 2007 day 3(last day)



At last i found the video clip from the camp i went...hahaha...*so happy* and *after long time of of waiting* *tired* xp....if u see closely,u can find me in all the 3 video *bangga gila* xp...and i am inviting you...yes,you la no need looked around d! to join my church camp this very dec 2008 and i cant wait to see u join me to shake this world together...u can read my review in the past and in the blog of how god have change me over there...Jesus i love u and u rock me and shake me...

so i am inviting all ppl who view this come and join me this year

love sick!

sometime i just have love sick...love sick mean u fall for a girl easily...i use to like this and that girl which i confess and it is very truth and proven scientifically for a teenager at my age...taken from a book review of what they write,"that teenager at the age of 18 to 20 are very common of having love sick"...i dare to say there are list of girl name pin into my heart and there are also a few mission i plan...but i dare not launch the mission because it may hurt other ppl feeling and twist the trust they have in me but i do let them know that i like them and tell what rubbish i can think of and i sometime do flirt with them too...and i am so sorry...beside that sometime love sick really make me desperate and confuse...all the girl i know is either study or at somewhere which is far...and i tent to miss them and and thought of them...beauty sometime can be a weapon to hurt guy..yes it is truth and don't ever underestimate the power of pretty ladies and girl for they also can turn u upside down and inside out...dun believe!! guys u can try,try it when u have pretty girlfriend then u go meet some which much more prettier then flirt with them then u know what happen next...i am sure that u kick Ur girlfriend away and go for the other girl and in the end u also will get rejected then u go back to the Ur ex-girlfriend and say sorry for the mistake u do and and hope u can have her back but then thing seem change and the answer u gonna have u will dislike it but i can say i am not that kinda guy...yes i may not have girlfriend but i do not have this kinda plan in my mind...truth is i planning to look for someone that i admire and like...such as smart,cute,pretty,non-talkative,independent, beautiful for sure,and other stuff which is too much to be mention here...somehow and some what i currently making my decision...even after making this decision..i am sure i wont get the girl i wan and i believe so...and all now is depend and all wait...i just have to let the time quickly passed by so that when the time comes and i am ready for a relationship then it will last long enough i guess...we know thing always look simple but actually it is hard...so everything i wrote here is truth about the real me and i confess it so there is no misunderstanding among us.

confuse

i juz dunno wat to write already...it has been 6 day passed already and i am still thinking about my pass....wth...i know is hard to moves on but still i have to move on with my life but i have alot of problem and trouble in my life as well...sometime it seem to be easy and simple but when we dun realise it,it make trouble out of it and confuse us when we didn't realise it...


my confusing brain and problem has trouble me for a few days already when my problem started at this 14 feb 08 in the very early in the morning and until now...i juz hope there is another way to settle this and wish i have not make this dumb decision...all this while it really hurt when i call and never pick and answer and msg when u never reply...i was thinking for the pass few days and come to a conclusion where am i that worthless and dumb guy for her and meaningless and everything is less compare with other guys out there..i juz wish that i can have the answer now...and i wait and wait...i will continue to wait for this answer i gonna to get,and i know i wont like it...but till then i have to live up to my promised that i have make...

never appear...

yesterday was a disaster to me during valentine day...as we know valentine day is a day where we go out to date and make the one we love happy...and today is my 4th day that i never sleep...and i dunno what to write about it as my cell brain started to die slowly...

my story started in the morning of valentine days....as i get myself prepare for the valentine date i was so afraid that i cant even get the flower i want from the flower shop that i place order as they have promised me as those flower i place order was expensive and is selling like hot pan cake in bakery...i was so afraid that i cant get everything prepare as i was totally blur as the nite before i didn't sleep at all...as i travel down the road to the flower shop and get my flower i was so happy that the flower is still there await me...i as lucky and thought today is a lucky day for me and then i took a cab to mid valley...during my ride i was so nervous and think about her and taking my time as the time pass so fast by me as i stuck in the middle of traffic jam...as i reach mid valley i just make myself run to Starbucks as i told her Starbucks is the place where we will meet and hope she is there for me...well thing always never turn out he way we expected to be,as i reach there at Starbucks she no way to be found as i look through the window...so i juz find a place where i could sit and wait for her as she could have caught in jam or on her way here.so i juz sent her smses telling that i here waiting for her already and i got a drink for myself...time passed quickly as i have my third drink here and i have msg her few time d...as i stare through the window looking over a sea of ppl i juz cant wait for her to appear in front of me...suddenly my there a msg from her and i thought she is here and i stood up and look around juz to find out that her msg mention she is not coming and i reply her that i will wait till u come...looking over severed of couple which having their wonderful time holding each other hand and staring each other i started to get envy of them and cant bear the laugh and joy that they are sharing in between themselves without caring about other ppl looking at...but i know she will appear soon...time pass even more faster then even before...and now is6plus yet she didn't appear my faith and hope started to tremble slowly and afraid something has happen and i really look dumb and stupid by the ppl around...then stupid thing some into my mind and play around in my brain...so i juz walk of about 6.30pm to get so air and smoke(i usually smoke when i am confuse,desperate and trouble...other then that i don't) as i waited for her a while more...but thing never change...she is no way to be found no even her shadow...so i juz walk off...