i like u forever

i will like u forever....u can try to ignore me and so on...but u know what...i juz wan u so badly...nothing gonna stop me now...i am selfish i know and i sorry for the thing that i did i am so sorry...anywhere give me a change to me and see how thing work out can u..nothing else more i will ask d...well all i wan u to be all mine...let wat ppl wan to comment about u or laugh at u...but happiness sure find a way that will make them jealous of u and me..trust me dear...trust me as u do last time...70% is what i saw in my sms...u cannot deny it...dun lie to yourself or other thing else...all matter now is i wont disturb u and i'll like u as much as i love myself...i have chosen u and nothing else more...so darling juz follow ur heart...even i know i can meet anymore or u wont reply my msg...there still a way i will always find u...u will keep me walking and searching for u...i wont let u go...but now all i know u need space and time so that u can rethink and make decision and calm down...darling tell me who there to sacrifice that much for u...i even willing to write u down in my blog juz to remember u...and u will always be in my mind...and i never let u go from my arm...

I LOVE YOU

it really have been a sad day after camp..well i meet tis girl at this camp...and i really like the way she is...well guys dun think dirty d...u should know y u like someone rite...even she is young she more likely mature then most of the girl i have meet out there my entire life...she juz really impress me...she beautiful,cute,adorable,gentle,mature and everything good that i can think off her...she juz the right girl i have been looking for...but too bad i have been rejected by her...u wan to know why....





the reason she give me is because age difference and because she have alot ppl going after her and she said she have bf some more she say that i'll dump her when i go into college...well from my heart i think it is not fair lor the way she treated me and i'm not the kind of guy who go joke about ppl feel...i really have dedicated my heart to her when she said she like me 70% yesterday after church...even when i go to 1 utama so to do window shopping..she juz pop into my head all the while and i have got something for her and me so kinda love chain necklace...and yes i mean i do really like her dearly...yes i really like more then myself..during the night everything juz turn ugly the way i dun expected it to be..as in the morning v are close and nite we are like enemy...we juz have a a bad argument that very nite...maybe is my mistaken because we juz meet 3 days at this camp i already tell her i like her...anyway she juz cant lie to herself the way she like me and feel for me...or maybe she cant tolerated the laughter from her friend...haiz...anyways i juz like her so much...well now i think i dun have a chance to see her again or msg her anymore cause of the dumb mistake i didn't...i juz wan to say im so sorry to u...i juz wan u to know that i there for u always..always mean the whole time even u can deny me..but Ur feeling cant deny me...so this mean i have to wait for u till everything calm down..look i want do really wan u to read this and i wan to say im so sorry and i do really like u deep in my heart..cross it...well tomoro or next day i will try to post the necklace up if i can...try to do so...

tell the world part 2

oh ya...let get back to the story...well this year camp is held at ancasa resort at port Dickson...the view there was awesome and beautiful and amazing...but food suck...cause we always have hot dog for breakfast and chicken for lunch and more chicken for dinner...ish...but some how the camp site have really impress me...the apartment was huge and beautiful..service was good

so now i juz wan to talk about god d...so juz let pay attention to wat i write about..basically god have big plan for most of the ppl in this world...he give us so many choice till there are so many religion in this world...but god really wan most of them back as his ppl...well all happen at this camp...god really move in ours present the ways we dun expected it to be...as i can c most of the ppl there really have be touch by god itself...how do i know!!...well i have been experience god since I'm 8 years old...in my ex-church they have taught me wat i need to know...so dun doubt wat i say...it truth...well this my testimony...i have backslide him many time in my older day even at time i could have die long time ago...but he always there to keep me safe and protect me from harm and danger...I'm really blessed to be his son...he unlimited love,mercy,and faith in me really have impress me..i dare to say he more prefect then my earthly father...he have help me most of time in this cruel world...he lifted me up when i fall,he fill my cup when I'm dry,he heal me when I'm injure...he juz so great...he has come looking for me even I'm run away...now I'm found and he has bring me back to be a part of his family...he give me a chance to live so that i can praise him and do his work down in this world...my conclusion is dun deny him he will always love u and wan u back very badly...praise the lord almighty...so this is the testimony that i wan to tell u and encourage u..and this blog of mine will help me spread this MSG to the world...so all Christian come as one let go tell the world about his greatness

tell the world part 1

fuh...so long d...at last back here with some interesting story to let the world know....


well is have been a awesome week and thing have happen the way that i dun expect it...all happen so suddenly the way god wan it to happen...well all started back at this camp there..the theme of the camp is TELL THE WORLD...i know it sound weird and funny...as a back slided christian...i went to this camp juz to enjoy myself and relax never thought of anything else...but god juz wan me back so badly that he turn my plan up side down and break me...during the 4 days camp at port Dickson...god really have touch me by giving me some flashback about my pass...at time i could have die at certain point but god have plan for me...he keep me alive so that i can be a living testimony here for u all out there...sharing him to u all is a small bit of the part of Wat i'm doing juz to redeem myself in this journey...I'll write more about him when i free...cause im totally tired and have been really knock out during the camp...maybe tomorrow will have more new...nitez

is a sad thing

Spm have pass few days already...i really dunno what to do in the house...everyday just hang around in the house like a zombie walking and laying around...have been thinking alot since then...from girl till study and so on...well today i just wan to talk about this girl...well actually i have been admiring this gurl "a very special girl indeed" to be my partner few time d since form 4(06) but till today(07) i got rejected straight to my faces 2 times in a row... at the first time i ask her for a date is f4 but she reject me since then i thought she got her own reason for doing so such as she want to continue her study and dun wan ppl to disturb her study or maybe her parent don't allow it.

After spm over few days d i have been again and make up alot of stupid excuse and reason to ask her out again to be my partner but didn't make it and just about yesterday i have have been thinking very hard about the decision I'm about going to make and keep figuring excuse and reason which took me to make a final decision at 4 am to ask her again and yet got rejection from her again in the morning...is was another failure and it really hurt it feel like those word are like a knife slice into my heart when i feel safe...i dunno "what wrong with me"...is this a fate could i never be with her at all!!!...I'm wondering...just wondering...standing motionless and defenceless in the middle of no way i cry to myself deep down my heart and see through my passed in school i know that I'm not a playboy...seldom talk...and indeed sometime I'm can rude at teacher...a very good,protective,caring,helpful friend...yet y!!! is she really that mean...come on give a try gurl??...i always see how love formed in human even kids also know the process...as an old saying LOVE IS BLIND and UNCONDITION....haiz...what can i do to make her like me?...i got nothing to prove 'NOTHING'...but i know i can be a perfect partner a good and honest man protective and caring and always will be her side when she needed someone the most...anyhow everything i mention about it useless now...all i hope now is a miracles to happen...let god decide the fate...I'm just a very small powerless creature god created in this world...let him decide my fate...and let time just passes by day by day till she re

a little to loses in life.

after spm over...i have been thinking alot of question in my mind(alot) from friend till study...i really have not make up my mind about what coming up next but for sure me and my friend will be separated because of our diffrent walk in life...i have been thinking will there be any joy left as the pass in the future or we will forget each other and never be heard from each other again...haiz...it really suck when i come to think about it...i really gonna miss a whole bunch of crazy insane people from my skull from teacher that i argue with and friend that have been with me fight till the end of skull life and a few pretty gurl(hahaaaa) but best of all is i'm totally free from skull rules...NO MORE SCHOOL RULES THAT RUIN MY BEAUTIFUL LIFE....so now i just hope destiny will bring us back all together again and as a bunch of professional people in the future....all the best to all my friend in life...let not give up in life as we set forth to conquer the word....

friend forever

today was a great day and much better before...it can be nothing special and so on and somemore it can be the same old sunday which repeating each week throughout the whole year...but today it is really great...first of all after so long (2 year+) i finally meet back my secondary admire...it was she the one actuate me to study hard to surpass her and yet till today i still lose to her...anyhow she is the most beautiful creature that have change my life most...i still can remenber back my pass...i was once a very lazy bugger who juz play around in the skul and but after meeting her,i'm totally change...i become more responsible in my study and become more mature...but somehow i switch skul and lost touch with her...but today i meet her back through email...thanks to anna...and wish me luck that we will keep in touch always...as an old saying said:ONCE A FRIEND ALWAYS A FRIEND....nites

first blog

well basically this is my very first blog page here...well i dun really care what this blog can do or watever function it have...basically i just want to express myself here...from today onward this site will be a site for me to express my feeling,my suitation in life and so on...i hope someone out there will see what life is about..it might be a story and so on..but what i hope most is my sweet dear which is my admire will find this blog...i just want to let her know my life and share it with her...futhermore to info the people out there im single at the age of 17...hahaahaaa...weird rite..k la