END OF PLKN

i am back at last...this time for good..i will never ever going back to the SO CALLED PLKN camp...being there can mean alot of stuff to me...even there are sweet and bad time...i still hate being there wasting my precious time...apart from that i really glad that i am given a opportunity to experience the awesome "PLKN" even most of the teenager hate to pronounce this words...but i urge teenager nowadays to join this program...it would be a great fun being there meeting all kinda strange,funny,weird,and real ugly ppl over there...best thing is to be in group is all i can say...beside the food suck i also really like alot stuff there from teacher and thing i learn and friend beyond word can express...teacher i meet is really a pleasure and joy to know them..they are much better and great then the outside teacher in schools i have meet so far...teacher i meet there really make my heart pour out to them...i mean i really can trust and care for them(i don't usually care for unknown stranger) moreover their wonder of love and care toward me is really beyond word expression...

beside that there are alot great friend i really appreciate...as i know most ppl out there only need friend as a companion and nothing more that...but now i have the answer what friend is...friend is someone who willing to share their happiness with me and my took away my sadness,friend is someone who will stand by us no matter what happen,friend is someone who help to watch our back and always walk together no matter who we are,friend is someone who willing to sacrifice himself from the ppl who is hurting me,friend is someone who dun care about what i say to them even sometime i hurt their feeling and friend is someone who will encourage and give us hand and strength when i am weak ,tired and break down...this is what i learn in the camp...i really want to THANKS ALL MY FRIEND i meet there...no matter where u are nor what u are i will forever respect and appreciate the thing u have done in my life over there...

the lesson might be boring yet when we really wan to know something it wont make us feel bored at all even we listen hundreds times...what i like about it is the CHARACTER BUILDING class i and 2, beside that i also like the fourth class COUNTRY CONTRIBUTION...well being in this 2 classes always make me feel comfortable beside meeting friends...the point this 2 classes teacher is awesome the teaching is much more fun compare to the others classes i been into which is suck and bored...i really want to thanks personally to my CB class teacher (cikgu sabri,cikgu azza,cikgu siti and classmate...they are the one who make me realize what i am,changes i need to change in my character and behavior and who i wan to become in future...they are THE BEST CLASSMATE...then the country contribution is also another fun class to be in it help me to know what Malaysia's situation is now and help us to be someone who will contribute our strength into it...(but i have to see how cause i don't simply interfere into some politic issue plus as long it dont goes against my right i am happy to continue my simple daily walk)...thanks again to my cc classmate LOVE YOU ALL and cikgu libar also...(opss do i spell it wrongly)


PLKN always have been a great place to be in and the bad part of it is the food suck as usual,but that not the main problem,cause sometime it also taste real good and tasty...but what i dislike over there is some malay guys who always try to find fault and problem with the chinese ppl over there as i want to let you ppl to know i just got bash up last 2days before plkn end...u all must be wondering why rite...well actually alot ppl at camp know nor maybe when u read this u may think i am telling story...but what i write here is all the truth and nothing else...if u think i am tellin story u can skip here and be in the end


well thing start on the Thursdays morning...well i cant really recall much of what have happen until clearly in the 11.30 after our last marching rehearsal that day...on the way back dorm together with my friend after such a long tired morning doing rehearsal we finally got a chance go to canteen for a morning tea break..after our drinks i went back with a friend to dorm but when i reach there without knowing what happen in the dorm suddenly there comes a malays guys accusing one of my friend for stealing with force...then i ask what happen actually...so i went to check my locker if is got break in then this malays use hand force over the Chinese ppl in the dorm and i feel it is not right so i stand for my fella friends...so i scold them and i feel really sad for few item i have got stolen...so i scold them and talk common sense in front of them saying we are doing the rehearsal together how can it be us and telling them my locker have been break in also...so i feel it is not right to accuse chinese ppl who steal their stuff....half way talk malays ppl tot they got a big group can bullies the smaller group of chinese ppl...then i have no choice as this malays wira still using their dirty hand on chinese guys with force and holding their head and neck...got no choice and cant bear to see my friend being like that i stand up for them and argue with them till fight occur....even i got more of the punches kick and hard boot land on my bodies i still wan to fight till the end...what happen there that time is beyond what i can recall it lasted for more then 5min fight (extra info:my square leader also bash me up yet i try to revenge he jump to the back so chickening fella,dare to belasah me but dun dare to take hit from me)but when the fight end and cikgu nan arrive at my dorm without knowing wat really have happen i explain to him that my locker got break in and the fight just occur before he arrive...even though he take action about then passed to the O.C still nothing the o.c can do about it...i have tr to explain and because the word 'tengking' (i definitely dunno what is that) then i lost 50% of my explaining chance...beside that cikgu bob and cikgu zul have been fair to me cause majority is malays ppl involve...so teacher keep asking me not to bring up the matter to the discipline and i really hate it...stubborn form more then 30min lastly i give up and let them win the case cause i was force to do so and dun have any other option at all in the meantime cikgu nordin also come and add firewood into the fire so got no choice i have let it go...and in the same time i have to apologize to them even i am not wrong at all...really bullshit that time...haiz...


anyways i really glad it is over now...freedom at last but my revenge will seek them till my last breath on this world...again i THANKS ALL THE TEACHER AND FRIENDS AND PEOPLE THAT I MEET OVER THERE...all the best to you all in the future and take care buddies...love and respect to the people who respect me and love the the who don't hate me,care for the people who share with me...

ends

To realise

To realize the value of a sister,
Ask someone who doesn't have one.

To realize the value of ten years,
Ask a newly divorced couple.

To realize the value of four years
ask a graduate.

To realize the value of one year
Ask a student whohas failed a final exam.

To realize the value of nine months
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize the value of one month
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize the value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize the value of one hour
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize the value of one minute
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize the value of one-second
Ask a person who has survived an accident...

To realize the value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.


Time waits for no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:Lose one.

The origin of this writer is unknown,
But it brings good luck to everyone who passes it on.
Do not keep this message.
Forward! it to friends to whom you wish good luck
Peace love and prosperity to all

just back

fuh...this place look so dusty and dull...let me cheer here up...well actually i am back from national service program just for break. =) nothing much to say about it as it is bored and waste time...a couple of friend ppl there that all...best of all meet a number of good buddies and companion...food as usual suck and disgusting and not fresh at all...haiz...horrible way of living there..beside that i have nothing else to complain about it already...haiz

anyhow i'll be back soon to tell ur about my daily event..just wait for me to come back...that time i might have alot of thing to tell you people out there....

fu*k SPM(sendiri punya masalah)

today is the worst day of my life and most heart breaking...*hate it...i really mad myself because of my SPM RESULT IS OUT...GUESS WHAT!!! those subject i wanted to aim A's for got C's and not many subject i aim for A's got A's...*wth*...i put my effort in and i do my revision and so on...but guess what i got in the end of it...NOTHING...haiz...now i juz feel bad and guess my future is in a ruin and i dunno how to further my study....
let god himself decide for me...i mean now i am totally hopeless and in my parent eyes i like a rubbish because of the result...they see my affort but my ending equal to nothing..so i xxxxx xxxxxx lalalallallaaaala........



why it have to be like this...why why why why why...............bla bla bla..!



why me...those ppl below me also can do something about their grade and why is me in a serious state...i am not satisfy and i really badly wanna go into college...anyone out there can recommend me some course...and what can i do...help and make me relief pls...pls pls pls...........

FROM TODAY ONWARD I TIMOTHY LAM OR KNOWS AS KOK LEONG NOR FROSS GONNA STAND UP AND BE A GOOD,HYPER AND INTERESTING FELLA

why am i taking this vows!!! *sweat*

i know i kinda boring fella always ups with my own point of view and thought...but today onward after few days of dull life...lastly i know i must enjoy this life while i can and stop worrying about the future what ahead....i know there have been alot ups and downs in my life recently...but this ain't gonna stop me now as how i use to be,i mean the last time where i always think of positive stuff and where ppl always look up to me for advice...so mean i gonna change my character and be a fun interesting fella looking forward and stand up again in searching for greatness in my life...


nevertheless i will stand down nor let ppl kick me at my ass again nor push me around like a puppet..so mean i gonna have the courage and i hope this courage gonna be strong base for me to stand on and a foundation where i can stand and lend no till i find something more solid in my life


and do u know that i gonna resign this week itself...*hahahahaha* =)
i gonna enjoy my rest soon for my ns(national service) before this i wanna ask u to come and join my for shopping spree...yup...i mention it...*kekekee* u must be wondering why rite...actually is kinda gross to c guy do shopping and i dun ,=mind about it as i like it too...hahahahahaaa...in order to enjoy and get ready for ns this is what i can do...beside that u can also ask me out for a event nor just hang out at cafe...not to mention i do hang out at any STARBUCKS i could find....*i love their coffee and hang out space...*winks*


ok la reach here for today...and pls encourage me so i can stand up again...

sign out...Zzzzzzzzzzz


by the way did i mention i am going off to ns soon....

sucked up life

oh hi,well i juz wanna express myself today,for the last few days of how i have been thinking and so on...well,everyday when i awake in the morning this word(what u gonna accomplishes today) always pop up in my head and make me think and stare at the ceiling for a moment and make my think hard...after the whole days pass by and ppl around kicked me hard at my ass and left me nothing...i will start to think all kind of nonsense and stuff and what i did today or even having love sick again...when i am young i always wonder why grow up always have alot of trouble and stuff to do and now i realise being a grow up is not so fun and yes there will be a long and hard journey to walk on till we grow old and rag till die....

and i dare to say what i am thinking recently is kinda really serious and got to do with my life...i always wonder and make conclusion on my own and judge myself and think hard to fix my suck up life and change it for a better future but there nothing i can do about it as i am only 18 this year even i might have the freedom and space of my own doesn't mean i can change it as my parent make the final call...even sometime this kinda issue make my brain crack and stay active when i am asleep physically and sometime it make me go crazy...but i know i cant resolve it...beside that load of work and trouble from office really gonna kill me soon cause i can bear the problem and catch up much with senior...beside that i'm too in a damn serious shit of desperation for girlfriend cause life without partner is kinda suck...why am i saying this...well as a teenager we have alot of peer pressure and secret in life and sometime this little dirty secret is hard to share among friend and family and we really wan to keep this secret in between whom we really can trust...


and why i say my life is suck up...well the fact is kind funny as u continue to read...well being a growing teenager into a young adult and working as a part-timer and doing my own stuff in my little small world is kinda bored...thinking honestly i badly wan to have a girlfriend right by me,REASON!!!

1)everyday having my own lunch alone IS DULL AND BORED
2)having my drink in a cafe alone IS SUCK when there is no special someone to chat to
3)run into my friend and their partner IS TOTAL SUCK when i am alone
4)go out alone nor watch movie alone really make ME BORED AND PAIN IN THE ASS
5)when needed someone to talk to and no one to turn to is BORING

CONCLUSION
MY LIFE IS SUCK AND BORED,MEANINGLESS AND LONELY


and i do have more reason but i juz dunno how to write it down as it may sound the same with different meaning...as we know one picture can have alot of meaning at the background therefore i dun wanna elaborate anymore

and at 3plus today i do have a really bad messenger conversation and pls dun and as it always have been,thing never turn out well and despite the surrounding i now in a deep shit of guiltiness...nothing to talk about it as it is personal and confidential...

Sunday as usual

hrmmmm nothing to write la...Saturday was boring after work,after work when for initial d practise and when home to complete the leftover upgrading computer stuff...

today is Sunday,nothing much to say about as u know i went to church,church is where u learn god and spend time with him and grow spiritually in him...today i went for first service because got some event at 11am which is a MUST TO BE THERE...during at the first service when i sitting with Charisse beside me suddenly there a stranger which is a girl come about to change place with her,i wonder why and it terrify me at a moment after sometime i realise why she sit beside me!,it because the place she sit is cool and the air-corn is juz beneath her *hahahaha* and wonder why Charisse willing to let go her sit to sit under there????...after the first service,i head for for the form 5 orientation...at first i wonder what is all about? but then,finally got the answer is was about IT ABOUT TRANSFERRING INTO A NEW CAMPUS CELL GROUP WHERE EVERYONE THERE IS MATURE AND IN COLLEGE LIFE ONLY(so so bored!)...is kinda bored when the event started cause the didn't plan they event properly and there is less then 30 ppl around*wonder where the rest???!! we have public caning for games and then pastor give some speech and i know there are 3 other ppl which have the same name as me include me which are timothy lam,timothy lee,timothy liew*so many timothy not include others*

after pastor speech we juz pray and have lunch which is KFC(Kentucky fried chicken) and pizza*all this food gonna make me cough like mad tomorrow* but when the fellowship started I'm like a stranger or a outsider*wth* no now ever talk to me nor be friend with me...suck(rather didn't go if i know this what happen)...for 5 hour at church today nothing even happen to me,i mean no new friend at all even though there are some ppl that know me...haiz...sad bored Sunday as usual...