desperate

as each day passed by i juz dun feel rite...i know this process is a part of growing up...well last nite i have not be sleeping..as most of ppl out there can thought and think of is normal thing for a teenager...well as far as i can know at the age of 18 most ppl out there like me are into relationship and i know a single male like me which doesn't even have a girlfriend is a disaster and disgrace to myself...but i know that i can get 1 soon but i first need to make plan and decision so that i wont messed up this relationship that i gonna take up and go for it...and in the mean while thing need to change in my life as we know ppl change as the grown so just wish me luck and pray for me as well...