i just dunno how to live on....life just getting started and i feel so suck already..as each day passed by i keep thinking about her..is a really big mistake,is really wrong for me to take the risk...i didn't know it can turn out to be like this...i am really sorry for what i have did to you...i am really sorry even sometime i cant forgive myself because of what i did on that night...it was foolishness of me to be blame on...i just dunno why it happen...and now left me nothing but full of regretfulness in this lonely spirit...why i am acting this way...why,but answer is never to be found within inside me...now all is left is a smile and your lovely face which i always can dream of and never to be see again in my entire life here...is all my fault to be blame upon for letting this simple relationship break...i just cant forgive myself till you forgive me...but what i wish for the most now is your smile and the relationship that pass by us....the time where we talk on phone,the time where i was criticise by you,laughter and tear that we share...i just miss the old and long gone you back...that why i cant let you go by...i know is my mistake...what more else i could do now?...no matter how hard i tried and how much i explain it mean nothing to you already...cause you have someone u needed...sorry again for what i did and what i have done for making you so disappointed in me...
all left to do for me is to let time passes by and wait...even i have to wait for my entire life....
Monday, June 16, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
frustration
haiz...really dunno what to do after plkn...i am fussing over my my course...i keep wondering what course should i take as i am a damn lazy bugger....wonder here and there....i am so so fuss Taylor or help or any other college i can go...and i actually have been thinking twice as hard cause the pilot-ing course have offer a very high expectation from the candidate..haiz...should i take A's level or juz take up business or engineering course....arghhhh..*brain gonna burst soon*...being this useless is really tired...if not i guess i have to wait till next year if i dun decide now as intake is closing soon...fish net man...hurry guess i have to make my DECISION SOON..haiz
Sunday, June 8, 2008
mess up picture from all event i am at plkn
this is my kayak team menber...training session from morning till
evening it turn us into a monster in juz 3weeks times...
this is when we do kerja amal or a.k.a charity work...this mak cik is damn nice...
our time of freedom and stress relief place after first days of tired hot day at
kem plkn jurga training training for our tomorrow competition.
thanks you sir...
looking for victim
plkn best friends...
from the left Johnathan,sally and me.
nice pic from tan's
teaching student to hold rifle gua..
noob-ster form plkn...
Saturday, June 7, 2008
INTERRUPTION
SORRY FOR THE INTERRUPTION ....
PICTURE FROM PLKN WILL UPLOAD IN A WHILE MORE...PLEASE BE WAIT FOR A FEW DAYS MORE....
PICTURE FROM PLKN WILL UPLOAD IN A WHILE MORE...PLEASE BE WAIT FOR A FEW DAYS MORE....
END OF PLKN
i am back at last...this time for good..i will never ever going back to the SO CALLED PLKN camp...being there can mean alot of stuff to me...even there are sweet and bad time...i still hate being there wasting my precious time...apart from that i really glad that i am given a opportunity to experience the awesome "PLKN" even most of the teenager hate to pronounce this words...but i urge teenager nowadays to join this program...it would be a great fun being there meeting all kinda strange,funny,weird,and real ugly ppl over there...best thing is to be in group is all i can say...beside the food suck i also really like alot stuff there from teacher and thing i learn and friend beyond word can express...teacher i meet is really a pleasure and joy to know them..they are much better and great then the outside teacher in schools i have meet so far...teacher i meet there really make my heart pour out to them...i mean i really can trust and care for them(i don't usually care for unknown stranger) moreover their wonder of love and care toward me is really beyond word expression...
beside that there are alot great friend i really appreciate...as i know most ppl out there only need friend as a companion and nothing more that...but now i have the answer what friend is...friend is someone who willing to share their happiness with me and my took away my sadness,friend is someone who will stand by us no matter what happen,friend is someone who help to watch our back and always walk together no matter who we are,friend is someone who willing to sacrifice himself from the ppl who is hurting me,friend is someone who dun care about what i say to them even sometime i hurt their feeling and friend is someone who will encourage and give us hand and strength when i am weak ,tired and break down...this is what i learn in the camp...i really want to THANKS ALL MY FRIEND i meet there...no matter where u are nor what u are i will forever respect and appreciate the thing u have done in my life over there...
the lesson might be boring yet when we really wan to know something it wont make us feel bored at all even we listen hundreds times...what i like about it is the CHARACTER BUILDING class i and 2, beside that i also like the fourth class COUNTRY CONTRIBUTION...well being in this 2 classes always make me feel comfortable beside meeting friends...the point this 2 classes teacher is awesome the teaching is much more fun compare to the others classes i been into which is suck and bored...i really want to thanks personally to my CB class teacher (cikgu sabri,cikgu azza,cikgu siti and classmate...they are the one who make me realize what i am,changes i need to change in my character and behavior and who i wan to become in future...they are THE BEST CLASSMATE...then the country contribution is also another fun class to be in it help me to know what Malaysia's situation is now and help us to be someone who will contribute our strength into it...(but i have to see how cause i don't simply interfere into some politic issue plus as long it dont goes against my right i am happy to continue my simple daily walk)...thanks again to my cc classmate LOVE YOU ALL and cikgu libar also...(opss do i spell it wrongly)
PLKN always have been a great place to be in and the bad part of it is the food suck as usual,but that not the main problem,cause sometime it also taste real good and tasty...but what i dislike over there is some malay guys who always try to find fault and problem with the chinese ppl over there as i want to let you ppl to know i just got bash up last 2days before plkn end...u all must be wondering why rite...well actually alot ppl at camp know nor maybe when u read this u may think i am telling story...but what i write here is all the truth and nothing else...if u think i am tellin story u can skip here and be in the end
well thing start on the Thursdays morning...well i cant really recall much of what have happen until clearly in the 11.30 after our last marching rehearsal that day...on the way back dorm together with my friend after such a long tired morning doing rehearsal we finally got a chance go to canteen for a morning tea break..after our drinks i went back with a friend to dorm but when i reach there without knowing what happen in the dorm suddenly there comes a malays guys accusing one of my friend for stealing with force...then i ask what happen actually...so i went to check my locker if is got break in then this malays use hand force over the Chinese ppl in the dorm and i feel it is not right so i stand for my fella friends...so i scold them and i feel really sad for few item i have got stolen...so i scold them and talk common sense in front of them saying we are doing the rehearsal together how can it be us and telling them my locker have been break in also...so i feel it is not right to accuse chinese ppl who steal their stuff....half way talk malays ppl tot they got a big group can bullies the smaller group of chinese ppl...then i have no choice as this malays wira still using their dirty hand on chinese guys with force and holding their head and neck...got no choice and cant bear to see my friend being like that i stand up for them and argue with them till fight occur....even i got more of the punches kick and hard boot land on my bodies i still wan to fight till the end...what happen there that time is beyond what i can recall it lasted for more then 5min fight (extra info:my square leader also bash me up yet i try to revenge he jump to the back so chickening fella,dare to belasah me but dun dare to take hit from me)but when the fight end and cikgu nan arrive at my dorm without knowing wat really have happen i explain to him that my locker got break in and the fight just occur before he arrive...even though he take action about then passed to the O.C still nothing the o.c can do about it...i have tr to explain and because the word 'tengking' (i definitely dunno what is that) then i lost 50% of my explaining chance...beside that cikgu bob and cikgu zul have been fair to me cause majority is malays ppl involve...so teacher keep asking me not to bring up the matter to the discipline and i really hate it...stubborn form more then 30min lastly i give up and let them win the case cause i was force to do so and dun have any other option at all in the meantime cikgu nordin also come and add firewood into the fire so got no choice i have let it go...and in the same time i have to apologize to them even i am not wrong at all...really bullshit that time...haiz...
anyways i really glad it is over now...freedom at last but my revenge will seek them till my last breath on this world...again i THANKS ALL THE TEACHER AND FRIENDS AND PEOPLE THAT I MEET OVER THERE...all the best to you all in the future and take care buddies...love and respect to the people who respect me and love the the who don't hate me,care for the people who share with me...
ends
beside that there are alot great friend i really appreciate...as i know most ppl out there only need friend as a companion and nothing more that...but now i have the answer what friend is...friend is someone who willing to share their happiness with me and my took away my sadness,friend is someone who will stand by us no matter what happen,friend is someone who help to watch our back and always walk together no matter who we are,friend is someone who willing to sacrifice himself from the ppl who is hurting me,friend is someone who dun care about what i say to them even sometime i hurt their feeling and friend is someone who will encourage and give us hand and strength when i am weak ,tired and break down...this is what i learn in the camp...i really want to THANKS ALL MY FRIEND i meet there...no matter where u are nor what u are i will forever respect and appreciate the thing u have done in my life over there...
the lesson might be boring yet when we really wan to know something it wont make us feel bored at all even we listen hundreds times...what i like about it is the CHARACTER BUILDING class i and 2, beside that i also like the fourth class COUNTRY CONTRIBUTION...well being in this 2 classes always make me feel comfortable beside meeting friends...the point this 2 classes teacher is awesome the teaching is much more fun compare to the others classes i been into which is suck and bored...i really want to thanks personally to my CB class teacher (cikgu sabri,cikgu azza,cikgu siti and classmate...they are the one who make me realize what i am,changes i need to change in my character and behavior and who i wan to become in future...they are THE BEST CLASSMATE...then the country contribution is also another fun class to be in it help me to know what Malaysia's situation is now and help us to be someone who will contribute our strength into it...(but i have to see how cause i don't simply interfere into some politic issue plus as long it dont goes against my right i am happy to continue my simple daily walk)...thanks again to my cc classmate LOVE YOU ALL and cikgu libar also...(opss do i spell it wrongly)
PLKN always have been a great place to be in and the bad part of it is the food suck as usual,but that not the main problem,cause sometime it also taste real good and tasty...but what i dislike over there is some malay guys who always try to find fault and problem with the chinese ppl over there as i want to let you ppl to know i just got bash up last 2days before plkn end...u all must be wondering why rite...well actually alot ppl at camp know nor maybe when u read this u may think i am telling story...but what i write here is all the truth and nothing else...if u think i am tellin story u can skip here and be in the end
well thing start on the Thursdays morning...well i cant really recall much of what have happen until clearly in the 11.30 after our last marching rehearsal that day...on the way back dorm together with my friend after such a long tired morning doing rehearsal we finally got a chance go to canteen for a morning tea break..after our drinks i went back with a friend to dorm but when i reach there without knowing what happen in the dorm suddenly there comes a malays guys accusing one of my friend for stealing with force...then i ask what happen actually...so i went to check my locker if is got break in then this malays use hand force over the Chinese ppl in the dorm and i feel it is not right so i stand for my fella friends...so i scold them and i feel really sad for few item i have got stolen...so i scold them and talk common sense in front of them saying we are doing the rehearsal together how can it be us and telling them my locker have been break in also...so i feel it is not right to accuse chinese ppl who steal their stuff....half way talk malays ppl tot they got a big group can bullies the smaller group of chinese ppl...then i have no choice as this malays wira still using their dirty hand on chinese guys with force and holding their head and neck...got no choice and cant bear to see my friend being like that i stand up for them and argue with them till fight occur....even i got more of the punches kick and hard boot land on my bodies i still wan to fight till the end...what happen there that time is beyond what i can recall it lasted for more then 5min fight (extra info:my square leader also bash me up yet i try to revenge he jump to the back so chickening fella,dare to belasah me but dun dare to take hit from me)but when the fight end and cikgu nan arrive at my dorm without knowing wat really have happen i explain to him that my locker got break in and the fight just occur before he arrive...even though he take action about then passed to the O.C still nothing the o.c can do about it...i have tr to explain and because the word 'tengking' (i definitely dunno what is that) then i lost 50% of my explaining chance...beside that cikgu bob and cikgu zul have been fair to me cause majority is malays ppl involve...so teacher keep asking me not to bring up the matter to the discipline and i really hate it...stubborn form more then 30min lastly i give up and let them win the case cause i was force to do so and dun have any other option at all in the meantime cikgu nordin also come and add firewood into the fire so got no choice i have let it go...and in the same time i have to apologize to them even i am not wrong at all...really bullshit that time...haiz...
anyways i really glad it is over now...freedom at last but my revenge will seek them till my last breath on this world...again i THANKS ALL THE TEACHER AND FRIENDS AND PEOPLE THAT I MEET OVER THERE...all the best to you all in the future and take care buddies...love and respect to the people who respect me and love the the who don't hate me,care for the people who share with me...
ends
Monday, May 19, 2008
To realise
To realize the value of a sister,
Ask someone who doesn't have one.
To realize the value of ten years,
Ask a newly divorced couple.
To realize the value of four years
ask a graduate.
To realize the value of one year
Ask a student whohas failed a final exam.
To realize the value of nine months
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize the value of one month
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.
To realize the value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of one hour
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize the value of one minute
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize the value of one-second
Ask a person who has survived an accident...
To realize the value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.
Time waits for no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend:Lose one.
The origin of this writer is unknown,
But it brings good luck to everyone who passes it on.
Do not keep this message.
Forward! it to friends to whom you wish good luck
Peace love and prosperity to all
Ask someone who doesn't have one.
To realize the value of ten years,
Ask a newly divorced couple.
To realize the value of four years
ask a graduate.
To realize the value of one year
Ask a student whohas failed a final exam.
To realize the value of nine months
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize the value of one month
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.
To realize the value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of one hour
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize the value of one minute
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize the value of one-second
Ask a person who has survived an accident...
To realize the value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.
Time waits for no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend:Lose one.
The origin of this writer is unknown,
But it brings good luck to everyone who passes it on.
Do not keep this message.
Forward! it to friends to whom you wish good luck
Peace love and prosperity to all
Sunday, May 18, 2008
just back
fuh...this place look so dusty and dull...let me cheer here up...well actually i am back from national service program just for break. =) nothing much to say about it as it is bored and waste time...a couple of friend ppl there that all...best of all meet a number of good buddies and companion...food as usual suck and disgusting and not fresh at all...haiz...horrible way of living there..beside that i have nothing else to complain about it already...haiz
anyhow i'll be back soon to tell ur about my daily event..just wait for me to come back...that time i might have alot of thing to tell you people out there....
anyhow i'll be back soon to tell ur about my daily event..just wait for me to come back...that time i might have alot of thing to tell you people out there....
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