is a sad thing

Spm have pass few days already...i really dunno what to do in the house...everyday just hang around in the house like a zombie walking and laying around...have been thinking alot since then...from girl till study and so on...well today i just wan to talk about this girl...well actually i have been admiring this gurl "a very special girl indeed" to be my partner few time d since form 4(06) but till today(07) i got rejected straight to my faces 2 times in a row... at the first time i ask her for a date is f4 but she reject me since then i thought she got her own reason for doing so such as she want to continue her study and dun wan ppl to disturb her study or maybe her parent don't allow it.

After spm over few days d i have been again and make up alot of stupid excuse and reason to ask her out again to be my partner but didn't make it and just about yesterday i have have been thinking very hard about the decision I'm about going to make and keep figuring excuse and reason which took me to make a final decision at 4 am to ask her again and yet got rejection from her again in the morning...is was another failure and it really hurt it feel like those word are like a knife slice into my heart when i feel safe...i dunno "what wrong with me"...is this a fate could i never be with her at all!!!...I'm wondering...just wondering...standing motionless and defenceless in the middle of no way i cry to myself deep down my heart and see through my passed in school i know that I'm not a playboy...seldom talk...and indeed sometime I'm can rude at teacher...a very good,protective,caring,helpful friend...yet y!!! is she really that mean...come on give a try gurl??...i always see how love formed in human even kids also know the process...as an old saying LOVE IS BLIND and UNCONDITION....haiz...what can i do to make her like me?...i got nothing to prove 'NOTHING'...but i know i can be a perfect partner a good and honest man protective and caring and always will be her side when she needed someone the most...anyhow everything i mention about it useless now...all i hope now is a miracles to happen...let god decide the fate...I'm just a very small powerless creature god created in this world...let him decide my fate...and let time just passes by day by day till she re

a little to loses in life.

after spm over...i have been thinking alot of question in my mind(alot) from friend till study...i really have not make up my mind about what coming up next but for sure me and my friend will be separated because of our diffrent walk in life...i have been thinking will there be any joy left as the pass in the future or we will forget each other and never be heard from each other again...haiz...it really suck when i come to think about it...i really gonna miss a whole bunch of crazy insane people from my skull from teacher that i argue with and friend that have been with me fight till the end of skull life and a few pretty gurl(hahaaaa) but best of all is i'm totally free from skull rules...NO MORE SCHOOL RULES THAT RUIN MY BEAUTIFUL LIFE....so now i just hope destiny will bring us back all together again and as a bunch of professional people in the future....all the best to all my friend in life...let not give up in life as we set forth to conquer the word....

friend forever

today was a great day and much better before...it can be nothing special and so on and somemore it can be the same old sunday which repeating each week throughout the whole year...but today it is really great...first of all after so long (2 year+) i finally meet back my secondary admire...it was she the one actuate me to study hard to surpass her and yet till today i still lose to her...anyhow she is the most beautiful creature that have change my life most...i still can remenber back my pass...i was once a very lazy bugger who juz play around in the skul and but after meeting her,i'm totally change...i become more responsible in my study and become more mature...but somehow i switch skul and lost touch with her...but today i meet her back through email...thanks to anna...and wish me luck that we will keep in touch always...as an old saying said:ONCE A FRIEND ALWAYS A FRIEND....nites

first blog

well basically this is my very first blog page here...well i dun really care what this blog can do or watever function it have...basically i just want to express myself here...from today onward this site will be a site for me to express my feeling,my suitation in life and so on...i hope someone out there will see what life is about..it might be a story and so on..but what i hope most is my sweet dear which is my admire will find this blog...i just want to let her know my life and share it with her...futhermore to info the people out there im single at the age of 17...hahaahaaa...weird rite..k la